a moment to rant

so we are doing this adoption thing...and i'm totally on board, as is steve...and we know it is the work of God...but i need a minute to rant...

everything between the step of signing up to finally getting the child whomps! it does...and maybe it's supposed to make up for the 9 months of being uncomfortable and sleeplessness, but i guarantee a sleepless night didn't cost anyone 15 grand!

i'm a normal run of the mill american who just wants what most couples do, a family. for whatever reason, i get to go about it this way, and this way is not the most fun, at least at this point. i once heard that adoption is not a lucrative business...if not, please tell me where it all goes. 2k here, 50 bucks there, 15k here, 500 bucks there...pretty sure my preggo friends weren't shelling out this kind of cash, even for ultrasound.

not to mention the mound of paperwork and red tape to prove that i am who i am, that i do in fact make X dollar, live at said address, have a good upstanding character, am not a child molester, don't have dangerous living conditions, and am able to care for a child. i know my friends didn't have to do this much...maybe if everyone who wanted a family had these requirements and had to pay the costs for all this, teen pregnancy would decrease.

i'm sure in the end it will all be worth it, and it will seem like the easiest thing ever done, but as i'm hemorrhaging cash and the paperwork is piling...i say that this is for the birds.